don't feel like working now. just waiting to go for dinner tonight at 7. kinda want to get a backport done before leaving for the weekend, but just no mood to do it now. went to pick up a parcel just now...still have so many little things to do...kinda annoying...need to pay CSM tuition, need to go get maps for may...need to take my car to service...etc etc..
i have been watching anime for like a whole week...from 1-84 for naruto. it is going kinda slow sometime..but overall it is not bad. the main theme of the whole thing seems to be that, why you're living is because you need to protect someone you love, someone important, someone you care about. this made me think, what indeed is the true meaning of life? why do we ever exist?
still remember last year my manager said, we need to think about where you want to be in like 5 or 10 years time. i heard about that a lot, but i never really give it a serious thought. i had always been thinking it is some bs interview questions. however, at that time, it really striked me. i was thinking of getting a cs master at the very beginning, when i join oracle. but how is it going to help me archieve my goal? well, what is my goal? maybe i want to own a company, maybe i want to be an executive in a corporation, or more specifically, an executive of a global company in charge of asia or greater china. then it seems that going for an MBA is more reasonable, and a cs master doesn't really have any added value. well, this is stiill my plan now, try to get an MBA next year. will see how things go.
but then, that is not the meaning of life. say in 20 years u archieved your goal. you are an company executive, so what? this is all about yourself, after you die, nothing happened. this lead me to think, what happen to you is not important. the important thing is how you're affecting the world, how you're affecting other ppl when you do something. by protecting someone you care about, someone important to you, something has changed. well this is just an example, there are a lot of things you do you can influence other ppl, like naruto is doing in the anime. meaning of life, is it about how you can influence other ppl? how you can contribute to the society? how you can make our lives as a human being better off?
still remember what we studied in form 6, there is an article "meaning of life". they say there are 4 layers, and the top layer is the value and principle. only if we hold on to our value and principle, and have a dream or goal and we arhieve, could our life be meaningful. but is it enough? true, maybe you did live a meaning life in your point of view, but after you left the world, what is left..?
still remember last year my manager said, we need to think about where you want to be in like 5 or 10 years time. i heard about that a lot, but i never really give it a serious thought. i had always been thinking it is some bs interview questions. however, at that time, it really striked me. i was thinking of getting a cs master at the very beginning, when i join oracle. but how is it going to help me archieve my goal? well, what is my goal? maybe i want to own a company, maybe i want to be an executive in a corporation, or more specifically, an executive of a global company in charge of asia or greater china. then it seems that going for an MBA is more reasonable, and a cs master doesn't really have any added value. well, this is stiill my plan now, try to get an MBA next year. will see how things go.
but then, that is not the meaning of life. say in 20 years u archieved your goal. you are an company executive, so what? this is all about yourself, after you die, nothing happened. this lead me to think, what happen to you is not important. the important thing is how you're affecting the world, how you're affecting other ppl when you do something. by protecting someone you care about, someone important to you, something has changed. well this is just an example, there are a lot of things you do you can influence other ppl, like naruto is doing in the anime. meaning of life, is it about how you can influence other ppl? how you can contribute to the society? how you can make our lives as a human being better off?
still remember what we studied in form 6, there is an article "meaning of life". they say there are 4 layers, and the top layer is the value and principle. only if we hold on to our value and principle, and have a dream or goal and we arhieve, could our life be meaningful. but is it enough? true, maybe you did live a meaning life in your point of view, but after you left the world, what is left..?
i was suddenly thinking about religion. could religion help you find the meaning of life? well, i'm kinda a cathloic. but there are just so many things in the bible that contradicts with science. at least for some topic, science seems to offer a more reasonable answer. i could believe that after we die, we could go to heaven or go to hell. no one knows what is going to happen after we die. so what it says in the bible doesn't contradicts with anything. could going to heaven be some sort of our ultimate goal? if it is, that probably provides an explanation of the article about archieving your goal and dream and holding your value, and to protect or give good influence to other ppl or the society, which is the same thing you need to do to get into heaven.
i dont' know why i'm suddenly having so much random thought..but anyway, just write it down now and see what i'll think after some years. maybe i'll laugh at myself that time.