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It has been quite a while since I last updated the blog. Things seems to turn 180 degrees....
Just a few weeks ago I thought I'm going to apply for MBA, get into business school and spend 2 years there. Now I'm thinking i'm not going to do it. Really sounds stupid huh? I don't know why I'm applying to b-school. I don't know what I want to get out of it. It seems like most ppl get out of MBA to be a consultant or a banker..then why bother? I'm not intersted in being a banker. Consulting..hm..I think I can probably try to get a consultant position without doing MBA anyway.
I think what I want now is some customer experience. I have been trying to look for PM and consultant positions in Oracle. Another possible solution is to work for the oracle apps division of a consulting firm. However they don't really hire ppl with H1 visa, and when you say you have no customer experience, seems that it was an immediate no. Consulting in oracle, I talked to bennet today. He told me something I haven't thought about. Oracle is actually trying to cut down on consulting to prevent competition with consulting firms. So it doesn't seem to be a solution. As for PM, I even interviewed for a position for global financials thru carol. It didn't work. He thinks i'm too technical. Well I think I am. From what bennet told me, consulting seems to be the way to go too.
Today is probably the last day bennet is here, he will be moving to shanghai to join the sales team there. I finally went up to him and have a chance to talk to him. He said he could find me a consulting position in shanghai. This is really tempting. He has a point. The market in China is like the market in US 10 years ago. The market in US is quite mature and have a lot of senior ppl understanding the products very well. So if I go to China now it could be a good opportunity.
I'll need to get back to him by Oct 15. There are certainly a lot of risk, but it seems like a good opportunity that I can't pass up. I miss my friends here, I miss them a lot. I talked to my mom just now, told her that I might be working in shanghai. I actually wanted to cry. I guess I really fall in love with SF and the friends here. I don't want to leave. :(
I don't know...tell me what I should do...I intend to go..maybe let's see how things work out.
Because of all these, didn't really have mood to work today..got a deadline tomorrow..but leaving all the work to last minute..that's why I'm still working on them now. :( Posted at 01:35 am by dream
I think I'm really getting serious about applying for MBA this time.
I talked to my manager just now, asked him for writing a recommendation. He raised the same question again, what is my goal. well, i thought my goal was to own a company or to become an executive in an internation corporation in asia. but how? getting an mba is not going to archieve this alone. what is important is that you see and understand how things really work. i'm not trying to invent something, but there are so many things here in US we took it for granted, that does not exist in other countries. say for OCO, it works pretty well in US, but when it goes to china, it doesn't work at all. DQM is not going to be useful, D&B doesn't exist, yahoo maps doesn't work..etc etc. I don't need to invent such thing called a grocery store, as long as i can realize there is a need of a grocery store in some place, open one, and I can be successful. For example, paypal, evite, they are so convenient in US, but such a thing doesn't really exist in china, well, as far as i know that is.
Here in oracle, all the design and requirements comes from top management, we are just the ones to implement this and implement that. Having here for 3 years, I still don't really see what is the need of our product, what is the value, who needs it, who buys it, or why it is successful or not successful. I want to see how things work in a higher level, if I'm just staying in oracle, say a few years later, what am i going to gain? vinoo said in a few years OCO might not even exist, things are changing so fast, we need to keep our eyes open for what can be improved, and opportunities will come. I just don't see the opportunties here in oracle, well, maybe that is because i'm not working hard enough or willing to take up an opportunity. Here in oracle, what i feel is the lack of movtivation or innovation from the developer level. as developers, i believe we are seeing a lot of problems management is not seeing. but they will never know, because in demos we just show them the things that work, not the things that doesn't work. this is probably the gap between management level and developers that needs to overcome.
i was looking at the requirement for MBA yesterday, most of them talk about leadership, and the essays are mostly about what is the long term and short term career goals, how an MBA is going to help u. i think i vaguely have an answer, but it is not quite complete yet. i need to talk to more ppl and see how things really work in the world, that is part of the reason for MBA. another reason could be because i know i'm lacking in presentation skills etc, i thought what i will learn in MBA would help. as vinoo said, a good product is not always going to be successful, sales and marketing and whole lot of other things is going to take a more important role. like os/2, it is a good software, but it just failed. that's why, for something to be successful, we need to have an understand of the bigger picture, what is what i hope an MBA will bring me.
i dont' really know my chance of getting into b school, but i think it isn't too bad. there are probably things that i should do now, esp. on the leadership part. i should probably look into oracle volunteers, and the other thing is the entreprenuer thing. i dont' know what it does, but it might be useful in the application. the application deadline is coming faster than i thought, i think i probably need to get started now.
hm..let me get the entreprenuership and oracle volunteer thing done now..at least take a look at what is is about. Posted at 06:09 pm by dream
it's finally friday...yeah!
don't feel like working now. just waiting to go for dinner tonight at 7. kinda want to get a backport done before leaving for the weekend, but just no mood to do it now. went to pick up a parcel just now...still have so many little things to do...kinda annoying...need to pay CSM tuition, need to go get maps for may...need to take my car to service...etc etc..
i have been watching anime for like a whole week...from 1-84 for naruto. it is going kinda slow sometime..but overall it is not bad. the main theme of the whole thing seems to be that, why you're living is because you need to protect someone you love, someone important, someone you care about. this made me think, what indeed is the true meaning of life? why do we ever exist?
still remember last year my manager said, we need to think about where you want to be in like 5 or 10 years time. i heard about that a lot, but i never really give it a serious thought. i had always been thinking it is some bs interview questions. however, at that time, it really striked me. i was thinking of getting a cs master at the very beginning, when i join oracle. but how is it going to help me archieve my goal? well, what is my goal? maybe i want to own a company, maybe i want to be an executive in a corporation, or more specifically, an executive of a global company in charge of asia or greater china. then it seems that going for an MBA is more reasonable, and a cs master doesn't really have any added value. well, this is stiill my plan now, try to get an MBA next year. will see how things go.
but then, that is not the meaning of life. say in 20 years u archieved your goal. you are an company executive, so what? this is all about yourself, after you die, nothing happened. this lead me to think, what happen to you is not important. the important thing is how you're affecting the world, how you're affecting other ppl when you do something. by protecting someone you care about, someone important to you, something has changed. well this is just an example, there are a lot of things you do you can influence other ppl, like naruto is doing in the anime. meaning of life, is it about how you can influence other ppl? how you can contribute to the society? how you can make our lives as a human being better off?
still remember what we studied in form 6, there is an article "meaning of life". they say there are 4 layers, and the top layer is the value and principle. only if we hold on to our value and principle, and have a dream or goal and we arhieve, could our life be meaningful. but is it enough? true, maybe you did live a meaning life in your point of view, but after you left the world, what is left..?
i was suddenly thinking about religion. could religion help you find the meaning of life? well, i'm kinda a cathloic. but there are just so many things in the bible that contradicts with science. at least for some topic, science seems to offer a more reasonable answer. i could believe that after we die, we could go to heaven or go to hell. no one knows what is going to happen after we die. so what it says in the bible doesn't contradicts with anything. could going to heaven be some sort of our ultimate goal? if it is, that probably provides an explanation of the article about archieving your goal and dream and holding your value, and to protect or give good influence to other ppl or the society, which is the same thing you need to do to get into heaven.
i dont' know why i'm suddenly having so much random thought..but anyway, just write it down now and see what i'll think after some years. maybe i'll laugh at myself that time. Posted at 06:12 pm by dream
i was just randomly browsing google sites..and came across the blogger thing..somehow suddenly want to try out a weblog service..this one looks pretty nice..no idea how often i'm going to update it..but oh well..let's see :p
spent almost the whole afternoon in office getting those stupid UI mandates done..kinda getting sick of it already...kinda want to hang out with someone now...don't want to think about that stupid OA thing anymore
oh yea..i faxed in my voter registration form today..finally...didn't know that i need to prefix 011 to dial to hk, not 001 -.-' that's why it didn't get thru last year....stupid me Posted at 02:59 am by dream
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